![]() Your father sounds very unsupportive and even controlling because he won't support your working or driving he also sounds pretty out-of-touch with reality. Finding employment and moving away from home I know you have many options and will have a bright future however, that will mean making some compromises and taking steps outside your current comfort zone in the immediate future. That sounds incredibly frustrated, so I can imagine how you feel like you're stuck. I can understand how you're feeling stuck: you don't have job opportunities or a means of getting there, your family situation is extremely restrictive, and you don't have close friends to turn to. Thanks for reading and I’d appreciate any help." Getting started Yet the idea of having somewhere to go where someone would listen to me is very attractive. I’ve only seen shrinks on TV and they seem to deal with older people and I’d feel embarrassed going for help. ![]() I come from a place where counselling/therapy are taboo. I just don’t know how to go from this to getting a car and becoming independent. I’d love to move to a big city and pursue my dream, date handsome men and maybe even one day do make-up on a stage show or film but I feel like it’s unattainable and it kind of scares me but the alternative is waste my life here. I’m sorry for unloading all this on you but I just can’t find the will to get out of bed and when I do I just want to get back in and sleep. Even though I’m living with my parents I feel just as alone and isolated, if not more, than I did when I was living alone at college. I can’t talk to my parents though because my mom and I have never had that kind of relationship and my dad just doesn’t listen. It makes me want to go out and have sex or even make a porno or something to make him see me as something other than a kid. I’m like – what am I? He leaves me alone in the house everyday and doesn’t think I’d ever do anything wild. I overhear him talking to his buddies and he says things like ‘you can’t leave young people alone in the house they’ll have parties and go crazy. My dad doesn’t seem to acknowledge me as a young adult. I would love to have sex and find myself thinking about it all the time and masturbating twice a day, I’d also just love some affection/cuddles or to have someone to talk to. I’ve also never had a boyfriend for the same reasons, although no boy ever hit on me either so the opportunity never arose. Couple that with my shyness and I’m lonely. I am alone with my folks in the house and never have anyone my own age to socialize with. I can’t understand why they’d find me interesting and won’t agree to go out partying in case I’d be a bore so my college friends all drifted away and I’m not in contact with anyone I went to high school with. I am a shy girl and find it hard to make friends, when I do I can’t keep them. All I want to do is snuggle up to my pillow where I feel warm and safe (almost loved as strange as it sounds) and cry. ![]() I then get up to eat and pretty much go back to bed. So I send my portfolio out but rarely get any work and if I do it’s unpaid! I stay in bed until noon and feel like such an embarrassment to my folks. My dad won’t help me out and I spent hundreds of dollars on lessons but he won’t let me behind the wheel or even let me pay for insurance on his car. ![]() I am now living back home in a real small town where I can’t even find a part-time job and I have no car to travel out of town to work. I really want to be a make-up artist though and went to night school while at college and have a qualification and a small portfolio. I am 20 and got my bachelors degree in economics in the fall. ![]() I’m feeling very lost lately and need some help. ![]()
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